seethingblue's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- chocolate pudding. i feel like i haven't slept in days, the taste of chocolate still on my tongue...i will be extremely depressed when school starts up again and winter begins to dwindle into that oppressive heat...i would love to experience the spring again...lovely breezes...a gradual green spreading over the trees...none of this shocking hot to cold and back again business...it irks me but i fear that i am like my mother...never at peace when it comes to the weather...i'll always be wishing for snow in july, wanting beach weather during an ice age...never making sense...verbally, emotionally i've officially finished my christmas shopping, whew...big weight lifted off of my shoulders...sometimes i wish i could just curl up with a good book and forget that christmas is even here...i keep imagining all of the garbage on the side of the road the day after...all that excess...loads of wrapping paper...torn boxes...smushed ribbons...barbie doll boxes with the wires popping through...shopping bags...every name brand imaginable...torn, ripped...crushed...demolished i remember carefully opening presents when my parents weren't home and wrapping them up again...it never diminished the excitement...now i'm watching every made-for-television christmas special on tv...trying to stay awake...trying not to move for it will wake my cat who is sleeping peacefully across my chest... a peaceful night. 7:34 p.m. - 2001-12-19 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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