seethingblue's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- spirits sometimes i feel like my mother's dead sister, like her soul flew into my body the day i was born, almost twenty years ago she died when my mother was seven, of yellow fever and her ashes are kept in a temple in seoul my grandmother holds my hands and tells me in korean how much i look like her daughter, Hui Byok, i'm afraid to see the pictures of this fourteen year old girl, her unsmiling face with my eyes or her life which was taken from her unwillingly, she fought till the end, and her body could not go on maybe i died when i was fourteen too, maybe her soul left me and now i am a wandering body, a hollow vessel of flesh and blood with no way of knowing who i really am maybe i am a ghost 12:30 p.m. - 2001-10-08 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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