seethingblue's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- november this week has been strange. i skipped class on wednesday because i wanted to focus on studying for my Math test the next day. i feel guilty. i always do but i am even more tortured by the thought of having to crawl out of my warm haven of comforters and face the cold day. not to mention tallahassee has the most horrid weather conditions. freezing in the mornings and hot enough to hit the beach by mid-afternoon. Give me my November. Give the season of Fall back to me. I'll deal with the snow and the mittens and the seven layer sweater salad. maybe i am just yearning for the numbness...to not have to feel the sun on me everywhere i go. it is one blazing eye staring me down. so i'm bipedal to protect myself. all these theories! sheesh. i miss the sidewalks in indiana and the mountains from my window in vajont...sometimes i wake up and wonder how i ever got here. why i ended up here and if it was really my choice. i don't have time to reflect on happiness or depression. you just go. you are just a person walking through the streets. a person with your shopping bag and your garfield soup thermos and your plastic lunchbox with the transformer stickers and suddenly you became a woman and suddenly you are supposed to know 10:55 a.m. - 2001-11-02 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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