seethingblue's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- fly me to germany or france raining again outside- i skipped geography class because i can't stay awake and there just isn't anything on the walls to look at- highschool wasn't the best experience but at least there were decorations everywhere...but we don't need artistic/creative inspiration/encouragement in college...we don't even need bells anymore...which is good but sometimes the bells seemed to be more for the teachers than the students...now i'm always late for my next class-this string of words is pointless-poor scheduling techniques coming back to haunt me i bore myself to tears i'm tired of arguing with my sisters esp. on rainy days, esp. when we are driving down the slick roads behind school buses and dump trucks, and i just mustered up the courage and sent this boy in my class an email even though i don't really know him...i just couldn't help it but he never replied; pathetic. the rain makes me want to walk long distances just to here the sound of my shoes slapping across the pavement...and just to feel something wet and cool on my cheeks like substitution kisses or something nutty like that...it all goes back to this psychosis of mine...i guess i just want to be ok with ok and not great or bad or superb or absolutely wonderful, just an ok person...just enough without remorse or regret or complaint i have fairytale notions of europe...that if i lived there i could shop in a little mom and pop store on the corner and have a bright yellow shopping basket hanging from my arm and there would be the famous black german bread that malei wished for always in america and the vegetables and fruits would be so fresh and vibrant and colorful- zuchini and fresh spinach and a hundred varieties of lettuce...and some homemade cakes. ok, what happened? i'm supposed to be doing research. 8:40 a.m. - 2002-02-07 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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