seethingblue's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- boys i really need to forget crush from sixth grade crush from tenth grade crush from last semester man in wheelchair at black dog cafe boy from the princess diaries (yes, i've seen this due to the fact that i have a thirteen year old sister who is obsessed with it and yes, it takes a lot of courage to admit that i kind of like it) boy from donnie darko (jake gyllenhaal) the naked chef (oops, oliver's twist) michael j. fox jude law english premier league soccer players min woo, the korean pop singer ok, ok, michael ballack (er, i know that's very groupy-ish) the lead singer of weezer the lead singer of coldplay some rapper i saw on BET that native american actor who was in windtalkers cute guys from y tu mama tambien ok, that's enough. i've reached a point in my life where i am out of touch with reality and living all these fantasies in my head because i'm really afraid to talk to men. i only snap at them, thinking that they'd rather be talking to someone else and are only talking to me because the kind of girls they really like are not around. and i know that this isn't very strong or womanly or feminist. but i can't help it. so there. i confess. i'm pathetic. and its my birthday. and i will probably cry at night wondering how much a face lift costs. because, yes, i think i am ugly and i know that is a very nineteen year old thing to say but i've only been twenty for a day and i have a feeling that changing the way i think is going to be tremendously hard 17:29 - 17 August, 2002 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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