seethingblue's Diaryland Diary

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I hate essays.

At the Sweet Shop things are quiet. I don't think about what I'm eating and we can watch the Price is Right from all angles. And I was getting really sick of fast food.

I have obsessions-- a different one every month it seems. When I was fifteen I obsessed over James Dean. It all started when I watched a TNT marathon featuring the only three films he ever did over and over again from noon to midnight. Then I was smitten. I know its everyone's life story-- I was more infatuated with his death than his life. And now I can't stop thinking of death and how I am really afraid that I will end up being nobody important, nobody worth obsessing over.

I'm afraid to write poetry.

23:11 - 11 February, 2003

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