seethingblue's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- crazy talk Everything feels like gobbledy-gook right now. I don't know why I obsess over guys who reject me. He isn't very kind or smart or great but has a presence that lingers like the smell of onions on hands and I do the cooking and the cutting, always, while others just sit back, smoke joints, flick their wrists back and forth. I have the steady hands, I absorb bad feelings. I just don't like being rejected. It makes me want to chop a head off. I'm sick of all the construction in Lake Worth. I sit in right turn lanes for hours on end, let the windshield wipers sweep robotically in very little rain. I am starting a grieving process of sorts and it is taking me down. I just don't want you to reject me. It's as easy as that. 15:08 - 15 December, 2005 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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