seethingblue's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- fastest gal this side of the mason-dixon line i give a dopey smile as i walk by the asian couple on their smoke break, splitting sardines on saltines, and their smokey kisses- one, two, three. they whisper something but don't laugh- maybe inwardly laughing, but i avoid two cracks in the concrete that way (breaking my mother's back)- on the sidewalk way- and two hundred chalk drawings like "ELECTION TODAY! MUST HAVE I.D." Ok, maybe not two hundred, but most definitely 63. its the magic number. do you ever feel lethargic? as if you're on drugs? as if you will be blown away? yes! yes! yes! do you ever feel like people are laughing at you? whispering about you? staring at you as you walk away? yes, i'm insane/paranoid/nervous-having problems with my self-image. therapy in elementary school? yes, the remedy for anything was a game of kickball and a processed taco bar. potassium from bananas- i write down grocery lists on the back of my history charts- food and academics, they control my life- killing my mental health, or so i think 2:14 p.m. - 2002-02-21 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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