seethingblue's Diaryland Diary

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30 July, 2015 - walls and doors
04 May, 2010 - when you find an old blog entry where someone you once loved has bad-mouthed you and you can't really hate it because that was then, this is now
16 March, 2010 - blarg.
16 March, 2010 - (tiny) failures
08 July, 2009 - agenda
06 February, 2009 - homemade doll
03 November, 2008 - funeral
04 May, 2008 - ice cream cones
21 March, 2008 - an inventory of produce
13 June, 2007 - my existence in june feels dry like buried bones
04 February, 2007 - small update
31 July, 2006 - when I was a freeport and you were the main drag
15 May, 2006 - sigh
15 May, 2006 - sigh
12 April, 2006 - ann patchett & lucy grealy
12 April, 2006 - runways
18 February, 2006 - sad
15 December, 2005 - crazy talk
02 December, 2005 - I feel completely insane.
30 November, 2005 - all you can do is wait and see
07 November, 2005 - not the type
31 October, 2005 - halloween
30 August, 2005 - floods
18 August, 2005 - I pretend to be a realist.
18 August, 2005 - please write me
25 July, 2005 - malinger
14 July, 2005 - I don't want them to turn me off
23 May, 2005 - these days feel crazy
10 May, 2005 - 67
29 April, 2005 - that sad sort of longing
29 March, 2005 - long-distance relationships are for the birds
04 February, 2005 - much love
06 December, 2004 - last day
27 November, 2004 - is this global warming?
21 July, 2004 - when I come home
08 July, 2004 - photos
08 July, 2004 - moved from tournedisque
08 July, 2004 - to my best friend
04 July, 2004 - you write about real things and every word of mine is artificial
04 July, 2004 - little phantoms everywhere
04 July, 2004 - another entry about race
04 July, 2004 - redneck zombies
25 June, 2004 - the last great weekend before the fourth
20 June, 2004 - father's day
20 June, 2004 - bland update
15 June, 2004 - update so they won't shut me down
29 May, 2004 - processions
12 May, 2004 - patterns
04 May, 2004 - waking up
14 April, 2004 - it's just not the same blues
25 March, 2004 - something i wrote below the lavendar in the backyard
06 March, 2004 - small vignette for kansas
06 March, 2004 - naranjo
21 February, 2004 - poems for and about the anonymous
11 February, 2004 - frontseats
21 January, 2004 - funerals
16 January, 2004 - the effects of tv on a weak and feeble mind
04 January, 2004 - ?
16 December, 2003 - all that death in winter
07 December, 2003 - a small understanding of life
20 November, 2003 - churches
20 November, 2003 - melting down like snowflakes
05 November, 2003 - guilt
28 October, 2003 - cobwebs (II)
28 October, 2003 - cobwebs
25 October, 2003 - words to forget
23 October, 2003 - the first thought of the hour
23 October, 2003 - the last entry of the hour
23 October, 2003 - sleep
17 October, 2003 - obscure light
17 October, 2003 - because i am afraid of you
17 October, 2003 - writes of passage
30 September, 2003 - dear kira
29 September, 2003 - orange
29 September, 2003 - unicorns
29 September, 2003 - wabi
16 September, 2003 - agni/inga
16 September, 2003 - eating lunch alone
16 September, 2003 - bell
10 September, 2003 - mountains
03 September, 2003 - xo
02 September, 2003 - handlebar mustache
31 August, 2003 - ediths
01 August, 2003 - bored!
31 July, 2003 - dear frustrated superstar
24 July, 2003 - ichetucknee
24 July, 2003 - diary entry
15 July, 2003 - xo
15 July, 2003 - just try harder
15 July, 2003 - feeling talentless, bitter
11 July, 2003 - long summers
16 June, 2003 - small entry three
16 June, 2003 - alice walker
07 June, 2003 - laux
07 June, 2003 - small entry two
07 June, 2003 - tralfamadore
27 May, 2003 - small entry one
14 May, 2003 - real women have curves
08 May, 2003 - monday monday monday
08 May, 2003 - diary entry
02 May, 2003 - they ask me if i write poems about myself and i politely reply no.
02 May, 2003 - when they cut your hair
02 May, 2003 - there is nothing blue
13 April, 2003 - ani difranco:
13 April, 2003 - diary entry
07 April, 2003 - the depression of drawn-out days and black & white movies
04 April, 2003 - skipping
02 April, 2003 - everybody has one, even ghosts
02 April, 2003 - frigidity
02 April, 2003 - fourth
28 March, 2003 - Alexej von Jawlensky
28 March, 2003 - death
28 March, 2003 - untitled
13 March, 2003 - how I spent my Spring Break
03 March, 2003 - confession #1
03 March, 2003 - paper lanterns
21 February, 2003 - seven lines of nothing much
21 February, 2003 - diary entry #2
11 February, 2003 - diary entry
09 February, 2003 - there are no coffee houses to cry in
08 February, 2003 - trying to filter thoughts from pain
06 February, 2003 - stress
04 February, 2003 - winter
02 February, 2003 - manic sunday??
31 January, 2003 - aargh.
31 January, 2003 - Sua
31 January, 2003 - the Jade
19 January, 2003 - upon the arrival of my mother in a butter yellow jacket, dampened by the weather of Indiana
21 December, 2002 - sleeves: envelopes, mix tapes, evergreens
20 December, 2002 - momentary depression
11 December, 2002 - Pears
11 December, 2002 - lakes of asphalt after the rain
05 December, 2002 - the smell of taxicabs (unfinished)
25 November, 2002 - phone sex
23 November, 2002 - piece one
07 November, 2002 - dangerous drivers
05 November, 2002 - the cat
05 November, 2002 - what is this?
05 November, 2002 - fiction workshop
05 November, 2002 - \"with arms outstretched\"
27 October, 2002 - after the football game on saturday
11 October, 2002 - war
30 September, 2002 - green papered roses
30 September, 2002 - sticky blue feathers
16 September, 2002 - i have no meaning to her
16 September, 2002 - nightmare
12 September, 2002 - in bed.
12 September, 2002 - from letterwriter
01 September, 2002 - spectre
29 August, 2002 - waterfalls
29 August, 2002 - stream of consciousness
28 August, 2002 - when i wasn't in the closet. and when the phone carried your voice many miles over.
28 August, 2002 - in the auditorium with the blue seats
27 August, 2002 - what i learned from geneen roth and mitsuko
17 August, 2002 - boys i really need to forget
13 August, 2002 - exorcisms
08 August, 2002 - suicide scherzo (ninth symphony, second movement)
05 August, 2002 - in novels we are safe
30 July, 2002 - african violets
25 July, 2002 - the suitcase which has been for years
25 July, 2002 - wind or window
20 July, 2002 - upon returning to yellowed plants and dusty comforters
11 July, 2002 - i cannot tell the difference between the lightning and the thunder anymore
05 July, 2002 - mornings in indiana
01 July, 2002 - port colborne
01 July, 2002 - seasons over people and places
29 June, 2002 - off of yellowbindi.diaryland.com
19 June, 2002 - the point of existence
15 June, 2002 - to ann
09 June, 2002 - houston
08 June, 2002 - incomparable dreams
05 June, 2002 - when i am sleeping.
03 June, 2002 - quiz
01 June, 2002 - art projects.
01 June, 2002 - ginger snaps
30 May, 2002 - this is how i fell.
30 May, 2002 - this is how i feel.
28 May, 2002 - how are you how are you
28 May, 2002 - from my perch
25 May, 2002 - bare
2002-05-25 - other diary
2002-05-12 - for jandy chang
2002-05-08 - the perfect surface.
2002-05-07 - therapeutic writing
2002-05-03 - sweet depression
2002-04-29 - a week of summer and then its gone
2002-04-25 - paper napkins with girls in tutus
2002-04-25 - afraid they won't remember me
2002-04-25 - migration
2002-04-23 - sleepwalking
2002-04-18 - i want something to change
2002-04-16 - girlfriend.
2002-04-14 - i couldn't say enough.
2002-04-14 - everytime i see your city
2002-04-11 - comic strips
2002-04-11 - nightmareonelmst4/kungfu/mr.jones
2002-04-07 - itchy
2002-04-02 - sent
2002-04-02 - was i rejected?
2002-04-01 - afterthought 1 1 1 1
2002-04-01 - in the aftermath of my period
2002-03-27 - my confidence is diminishing as we speak
2002-03-21 - for bunny
2002-03-21 - for mitsuko
2002-03-21 - those of us.
2002-03-18 - little photographer
2002-03-18 - bonsai
2002-03-17 - the old man at the airport
2002-03-09 - its a bad day
2002-03-07 - a bed crowded with pillows
2002-03-06 - sidenotes
2002-03-03 - kimchee + grits
2002-03-01 - sexism
2002-02-26 - the long day/road/walk ahead
2002-02-21 - fastest gal this side of the mason-dixon line
2002-02-17 - poem 204
2002-02-15 - homemade valentines like warm chocolate chip cookies
2002-02-13 - this drivel.
2002-02-12 - pre-socratic: the four elements of my own psyche
2002-02-10 - fly me back, to where i belong
2002-02-07 - fly me to germany or france
2002-02-06 - southern baptist smotherings
2002-02-06 - this is the truth about who i am
2002-02-04 - in need of something soft to hold
february 2, 2002 - personal circles and invaded space
2002-01-30 - lovesongs
2002-01-28 - i would never get published in the atlantic monthly
2002-01-26 - nightmares about not being able ever to drive away!
2002-01-24 - the construction of opera houses on monticello street
2002-01-21 - strange
2002-01-19 - i hate trying to think of clever descriptions for entries that are meaningless
2002-01-16 - practicing the word hello
2002-01-14 - ho chi minh and the silence of the lambs
2002-01-12 - haircuts
2002-01-09 - the bad luck that trails after me like a lost puppy
2002-01-05 - january girl
2002-01-03 - babbling
2002-01-02 - happy girls
2002-01-01 - the first day of the new year
2001-12-27 - agiter doucement avant de boire
2001-12-26 - arugula and lists
2001-12-23 - holidays
2001-12-21 - inspiration
2001-12-19 - chocolate pudding.
2001-12-13 - first official day of holiday break
2001-12-12 - memories
2001-12-12 - favorite diaries
2001-12-12 - exams
2001-12-11 - too small for the here and now
2001-12-09 - its only summer in my head
2001-12-07 - too many carbohydrates clouding up my thinking
2001-12-06 - thursday before my last class of the day
2001-12-04 - thirsty
2001-12-02 - chattering teeth
2001-12-02 - once in a blue moon
2001-12-01 - thoughts that run over and over through my head
2001-11-29 - greasy jeans
2001-11-26 - the wrong shoes
2001-11-24 - resolution
2001-11-20 - i'm an alien
2001-11-13 - anais nin
2001-11-10 - blank page
2001-11-08 - pretty in pink
2001-11-06 - a little stick drawing in my head
2001-11-02 - november
2001-10-24 - mrs. washington
2001-10-22 - magnets
2001-10-19 - winter
2001-10-18 - dislocated thoughts
2001-10-17 - bad hair day
2001-10-14 - lighthouse
2001-10-12 - ruby road
2001-10-11 - people from stardust
2001-10-08 - spirits
2001-10-05 - i skipped lit. class
2001-10-04 - i spend my life in libraries
2001-10-01 - rebel
2001-10-01 - "suck up and be nice"-ani
2001-09-27 - lembdas, the magical wafer
2001-09-27 - bell hooks
2001-09-25 - a shrine for the honest living
2001-09-25 - leap of faith
2001-09-25 - sleepthinking
2001-09-20 - why do you hate it here?
2001-09-17 - bus rider etiquette
2001-09-15 - sacred closet
2001-09-14 - lamenting at the printer kiosk
2001-09-12 - blue september indeed
2001-09-10 - daddy
2001-09-07 - humble pie
2001-09-05 - pass the ketchup, please
2001-03-19 - so few, so much