seethingblue's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- small vignette for kansas my father told me i was kansas-- a melting cold with large fields, gray skies but many zoos with flamingos that look out of place and homesick and fear the coming of tornadoes sweeping through. he told me this as i fell asleep in the car. i was the only child he spanked and the first time, he hit me so hard i peed in my pants and went to school, my face swollen and red from crying streaking tears and everyone pretended not to stare. i remember when he left for alaska and we stayed with my mother's sister and my older, meaner cousins and i picked my nose on the playground and then cried beneath the slide where no one could see me. i cannot remember kansas very well but there are pictures of me in a frilly blue dress. my father is holding me up to a giraffe in the witchita city zoo and though the picture does not capture it, i see myself pitching a fit and wriggling down to escape his hold. 23:32 - 06 March, 2004 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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