seethingblue's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- haircuts i had a dream that filled me with a sudden loss...an ache...so i got up this morning, stood in the bathtub and hacked two inches off of my hair... i came to the conclusion last night that i have some sort of social anxiety disorder...or i am on the verge of one...i spent an hour at the video rental place just trying to get the nerve to go up to the counter...i felt like running away or crying...or hiding...eventually i just ran out the door empty-handed...and in class my palms sweat when i think of contributing to the discussion...this fear is taking over my life... it isn't lack of self-confidence anymore...sure, that's probably part of it but its almost like a chemical imbalance in my head... i'm sure i'm exaggerating... 12:01 p.m. - 2002-01-12 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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